well no commissions yet *cries* though now i have some mola now cuz my GRANDMOTHER is here

sigh things are getting busy and tiring and now it's 3 in the morning and i can't sleep
i just finished eden of the east, i didn't get some parts like wtf is a NEET again but i liked the johnny hunter and all the naked men~

grandma has been a handful (actually more than that). i get worried about her, her health and all
she's not too old but she's old. she's weaker than the last time i met her
the older she gets the sadder i get, it makes my heart heavy.

i'm going to an art academy (uhh art day camp? idk what you yankees call it, no offence) and it makes me so jealous to see other older people's work, especially even the teacher's work
but i know i'm going the right direction from here. i just need to study S.A.T's more
and when i get into a college, i will BURN those S.A.T. books infront of my mom's face and say: HA. I SAY FUCK TOO.

then run away like a silly gyaru i am inside.


maddi or somebody will have to come over to bleach my hair
i wish kako did YOU LOSER COME OVER HERE.

summary: i hate S.A.T's (just kill me now), needy people can be hard to deal with, i've already thought of college, i'm gonna bleach my hair for a COSPLAY, i have no commissioners *yet*